presently, Love means nothing .

i've got only a certain number of memorys left in my head, & i've got gigantic stuffs to dwell on . unexpectedly, the greatest portion was took up by love relationship . usually, i'll rant it out to my dearest & she'll silently lend me her listening ears . but i haven't got to meet her up lately, it's been like weeks ? as usual, i do miss her alot, but i'm so restless that my days were taken up by computers & sleeps . i can sleep up to 4plus in the afternoon & continue to laze on my bed, just like today . oh yes, i just rejected 'him' :/ this post is now taken up by the words i wna say to 'him' though i don't know if you'll read my blog but it's okay . as i was moodless just now in msn, i don't wna hurt 'him' or myself any deeper .

thankyou for the gift you gave me on our first meetup .

i was greatful & touched by your sincerities .

that day was one of my happiest day you've gave me,

as i was really smiling from the bottom of my heart .

however, i'm sad to say, we could only go this far .

my deepest heartfelts, my apologies .

you told me how much you love me, & i really appreciates it .

i understand for, you wna prove to me how well you'll treat me .

however, i didn't have the courage to tell you, i'm sorry .

friends, represents love & care, which i don't know why you didn't wanted both of us to be .

aint couple to be, then being friends shall we ?

but sometimes i really can't understand what some of the 'him' are thinking about .

i do not wna have any relationship in this point in time, because i felt it's useless .

it's impossible to fend for two at the moment, as you guys ain't stable .

i don't need a guy to lead my life, as i'm happy to be what i am presently .

sometimes i couldn't intepret, is it so bad for myself to say i'm sorry, or to say okay but i don't love 'him' .

sighs, 'him' are really nonchalant, & they made me procrastinated for i don't know what else should i say .

please taggers, leave me a way out & path the way for me D:

TAGS REPLY .

amanda: HAHA, i totally forgotten about it, extreme stm lately, hurhur ! shall post about it other times (: & i didn't get the chance to read the video yettttttt :/

passby: it's about 20bucks ya'know . but the story is really heartwrenching .

kumiko: HAHA, my sexyyyyyyyyiest idiot yo ! :D

anna: yeah yo, laughs . finally righttt [:

chiewya: oh really uh, now then i know my blog is interesting ? HAHA, thanks anway !

trecia: welcome bongbong, okay ! meet up soonnnnnnnn .

fareen: sure ! what's your link uh ? :D

josephinee: uh, my hairstyle ? it's totally done by different hairstylist . but my latest hairstyle is done by a professional hairstylist, i just ask him to give my hair a trim, that's allllll . why ask about it ?

serene: oh my god ! really ? HAHA, i'm in heavens (: well done to amelia, laughhh . okay, send me the song the next time you get to seee me !

hongwei: oh gosh, i'm lazy what, hoho :D